I am rebirthed

Written today, on the eve of my 40th birthday after the most touching endings and beginnings/threshold rebirthing myself birthday ritual gifted to me by @eliza.feelings with the most precious women who knew me before they met me @hollieholdenlove @binnieadansbyofficial @nikkisladeuk @silaread @madeline_giles Kay Dayton. A closing of a time of many endings. Etched in my heart for forever.

I am Re-Birthed

On the eve of another year, I am rebirthed.
At the edge of a threshold, I am rebirthed.
As I treat what is ending with respect, I am rebirthed.
When I speak that which scares me, I am rebirthed.

When I am willing to lose myself, I am rebirthed.
When I give myself wholly to the in between, I am rebirthed.
When I release those who do not love me, I am rebirthed.
When I stop trying to convince those who do not see me accurately, I am rebirthed.

As I rest into the support around me, I am rebirthed.
If I keep my heart open through the agony, I am rebirthed.
If I keep my heart open through the ecstasy, I am rebirthed.
As my body crowns my babe, I am rebirthed.
In the parting of veils, I am rebirthed.
As I hurtle myself from the watery world of the mother into the fertile void of the in between, I am rebirthed.

When I gather the courage to descend, I am rebirthed.
When I trust in the sureness of the winter soil, I am rebirthed.
As I learn to see in the dark, I am rebirthed.
As I trust the future rose gardens coded within the seed, I am rebirthed.
As I learn to see and grow in the dark, I am rebirthed.
As I find the courage to reach for the light, I am rebirthed.
As I burst through the known containment of the bud, I am rebirthed.
As I find the courage to open and share my unique beauty with the world, I am rebirthed.
While I let go of the very thing that captivated others to me, I am rebirthed.
As I throw my petals to the wind for the chance to do it again, I am rebirthed.

Again and again, I am rebirthed.

I sacrifice who I thought I was in order to truly be me.

I release my hopes and my dreams, in order to be free.

I let go of inherited burdens, so I can be properly seen.

I surrender to the death of who I thought I was in order to give birth to me.